I never know no if I'm happy or confused when I remember a dream well enough to post about it. Frankly it doesn't happen near enough to be considered regular and that adds to the confusion of the entire experience.
A few days ago I was struck again by the dastardly dream bug who plants weed seeds in your brain and forces you down a path of random, impure thoughts. This particular incident was unsettling because it involved a girl I work with and an intimate situation just a few days before Carli was to come home from Africa...what a time for a dream about another girl.
I guess I'll stop dancing around the dream and just jump right into the scenario...off we go to dream world (imagine the page gets all squiggly and fades out).
The dream begins at Marin County 4-H camp, a very familiar place for me. I attended as a camper for about 5 years and now I attend as an adult chaperone every summer.
So the setting is in a huge redwood forest located in northern California about 2 hours or so from San Francisco. The camp is set-up with the boys bunks on the right side and girls bunks on the left with the dining hall and main activity center in between them. The spot everything is built on slopes up towards the road that you must drive down to reach the camp.
Here's a picture that shows some of the 4-H camp lay-out and activities.
Garrett Allan and I had worked an event for KOFY the day before and directly afterwards drove from the event to 4-H camp. When I awoke in the morning at camp he had made his bed next to mine on the bunk. In the real world the bunks are laid out horizontally and we all sleep vertically on them. Similar to a keyboard. With the keyboard being the bunk and the keys being the people sleeping on the bunk.
But in this particular dream sequence the bunks were laid out the same longways from right to left. But now we were all sleeping the same direction as the bunk. Which is much less efficient than the original way. So Garrett and I had beds next to each other.
The entire day at camp went fairly normal from what actually happens at 4-H camp when I'm there. The only thing out of the ordinary was the fact that Garrett and another girl I work with at KOFY was there (she shall remain nameless for two reasons: one is that on the absolutely improbably rare occasion she ever reads this it would probably make it all awkward and two my girlfriend is now home and the same thing applies to her.) I will call her Jackie.
I don't remember much from the activity part of the day but I do remember that everything went really normal. Somewhere towards the end of the day Garrett and I found out that we both had to work the next day for KOFY and had to get back to the station in the morning. This of course threw our plan off because we weren't planning on going back to San Francisco so soon and now we had to wake up with the sun to get back in time.
So Garrett and I planned on leaving 4-H camp around 5 am to get back to the TV station in time and of course Jackie wanted to go with us back to San Francisco. She didn't have to work so it made no sense for her to come back with us. Ultimately we decided to have her stay at 4-H camp and finish the week of camp as we had all planned to do. This did not go over so well with Jackie and she let us know.
The evening of activities at camp went off without a hitch. I decided to go to bed early since we now had to get up so early. Garrett decided to stay up through camp fire and the official end of the evening.
The next thing I remember is being gently woken up by Jackie after camp fire had ended. Garrett was not in his bed and no where to be found, at least I didn't see him when I woke up and looked around. Jackie was waking me up so she could get into bed with me. This is very abnormal for a few different reasons. The first and most basic is that at 4-H camp regardless of your relationship standing the boys and girls sleep apart from each other. So no way would Jackie be able to sleep with me. Secondly she is a co-worker and there has never been anything romantic between the two of us in the five months we have been working together.
I'll admit that we flirt at work but I think it is more a personality trait that we both have and not some spark or potential spark that we both feel for each other.
The weirdest part of this entire dream is that being woken up to allow Jackie to get into bed with me seemed completely normal to me in the dream. As if to suggest that there was something romantic going on. I said "oh, ok" and let her climb in next to me. I was wearing just boxers and she was in very skimpy pajamas and as soon as she was in bed we snuggled up really close to each other but nothing sexual took place.
Next thing I knew Garrett was waking me up to leave for San Francisco. It was about 5 am and we loaded our horse and wagon with our stuff and took off up the road to go home. You may have noticed I said horse and wagon. That's because that was our mode of transportation on this day. Which also makes no sense what so ever but in the dream it seemed perfectly normal.
That was pretty much the dream. It may not seem as bizarre to the reader but imagine the same situation happening in your life with people you know and it will become awkward quickly.
The only place I can think of that this dream came from was my familiarity with 4-H camp and of course my co-workers. The relationship with Garrett that I experienced in the dream is completely normal. We are friends and co-workers and that came through in the dream accurately. The relationship between me and Jackie was not accurate. Her and I get along really well but as I mentioned there is nothing romantic about it. Perhaps subconsciously I wouldn't mind if something happened romantically...interesting thought. I do find her attractive and I really like working with her, but I've never consciously thought about anything sexual with her.
I'm not sure where 4-H camp from. Garrett and Jackie have no idea about 4-H camp so for me to put them there with me is odd. Especially considering the romantic nature of Jackie and I's relationship. This dream made me think about her all day the next day and conveniently enough I had to work for KOFY with Garrett, so of course I told him all about the dream which put Jackie on my mind even more. It's almost as if the fact that I had this dream about her created feelings for her that I didn't have before.
I have worked with Jackie since the dream and I was constantly thinking about the romantic nature of our relationship in the dream. We were working a movie premiere, which is date like in nature and I made some stupid comments about being on a date which were met with general confusion and odd looks. Stupid dream making it all awkward in my mind...
Comments